Finally....

After all once again im here to update my BLOG...
Haihz....No 1 are beside me to share wat happen around me...
wat a pity...DAMN!!!! and...Finally i cant....stand for this relationship anymore...
he was...changing to some type...the 1 that i dun like...
mayb this is the real him...and he din care of me alot...or even little bit...
sometimes..need to be comfort and pamper..he just duno...
because he wont ever find out wat happen inside me...
begin to see him less...and...he said he wanted to work night job...
i think that will be a hard time for us~and mayb cant even see once a week
i told him tat i hope to see him more this few weeks..since this might be the last road for us to walk together....
Once again he refused to do so...he rather to acc the games whole day than acc me...
yea i lose....wat kind of shame......
that day we had argue again..duno since when...we kept quarreling...DAMN it!!!
And keep asking myself...why why and why
nowdays....i rather go back myself after i finish my work...because....
everytime when he fetch me...den he ll say stuck...BLA BLA BLA
den he call me go back myself by teksi on that day...it makes me feel HURTS!!!
yes he did...and i decided to go back myself since that day...EVERYDAY!
haihz...i dun understand...hw come he could change till like this???
ll it be so hard for him to fetch me?he do it everyday...(before)..bt nw...
i dun understand,he didn't work now...he just so free....
well...i think is my prob...
can we still together??alot of prob between us...
can we just solve it...i dunwan the current u...u knw?
could i have back the men that i first met??he did treat me perfectly good...and that was him!!
i miss the each day when we together...I MISS IT ALOT!!!!

U had Pissed me OFF.....

Early in the morning....We had Argue for nth....
He said that i like to show off our love...WTF.....
I written everything here am i show off too?GOSH....Luckily No ppl know about this Blog and no ppl are going to view this....If not im sure he ll eat me up....
Honestly i duno wat he wan,i duno either am i really suitable for him.
since he said my love to him was a teenager love....This was the word hurt me the most...
wat did i do?i was just put our pict in his MSN....am i wrong to do this??
This morning i was gv him a call...but he din anwered it...Haihz...
But after a few min...he called me back....
Thx for the call...i really have good time talking to you,you know everytime u call everyday i saw u,my love for u is getting stronger,
i cant imagine the man behind that beautiful voice that makes me love him even more.
i always think of u,if i will calculate ,there's 24 hours every one day and everyday i thought u 23 hours,59 min and 59 seconds..u know hw much i love u now?? i hope u feel the same way too~
But everytime when i ask u a question,u wont answer it patiently...if u do...
i really will appreciate it alot....ALOT..
i want u to put our pict nt because i do not trust u....i just wan try to avoid temptation as much as possible...
But i cant guess that u ll Scold me for that~
Pls always rmb that i love u alot,and u're my part of life.....
But u were saying that...Im Too over...AM I???
u were saying i was trying to arrange everything to u??wat did i arrange for u??
it was only a pict.... u leave me wif no choice,
u Had changed very slowly...from the day we together u had tried so hard to understand me,
And leave me such sweet memories....And now???
Wat's the point u doing all this to me??I was just saying tat im there wif u...the kind of love...
But im wrong to say that....IT wont ever happen to us....
I duno wat shud i say to u anymore...Or...shall we...perhaps...we should....
or say it like this....perhaps i shud let u go dont i?if i do so....den u wont do such thing to hurt me anymore....
I wish to be alone now...and...get myself away from u....
But...i dun think i could do so...GOSH.....i duno wat i wan either...
i loved this men..ALOT...but...our problem wont solve.....not ever.....
Im trying so hard nt to argue wif u...just bcoz i cant bear the pain...
since we argue and suddenly me tears coming out wif no reason...and i hv been tried very hard to suppress it..
I hope that when i thought it couldn't get better,and u prove me wrong...
I feel something in my heart,it's like a little flame...everytime i saw u,this flame ll light up...
and i ll forget all the things...
I wish i could to hold u tight rest of my life,and the luckiest person who kisses u goodnight everynight instead of just sending sms just greeting good night...
But,Unfortunately....Im nt the luckiest person who can do this...
And,Im nt going to Update Any blog Anymore for us,since u said i was showing off....
I just wan u to happy ,even if im'nt the reason behind the happiness....
Fate had brought us together,to meet,to know and thru to happiness and sadness thing in our life,So many question...Bt the answer is so few....
somedays i Hide my tears when i say your name,but the pain in my heart is still the same,
If there even comes a day when we cant be together...just wan u to know that u're in my heart...You'll be in there forever

Hope My Dear Recover Soon**

Wat A bad day...he Get sick LAST NIGHT**
HUsh....but he still come and fetch me at 7 pm...but when i saw him,he still look fine...
But he din talk very much...as we reach home...he go to sleep...
and he called me to wake him up when i"m ready to have dinner...
When i finished my bath,Bla bla...and im ready to go for dinner...as i get near him,
and i hold him...WHew....Damn Hot!!Just like a Hot Water....FEVER!!!...
so i din wake him up,and i told him to rest...i'll be the 1 who dapao to home lo...
since he get sick d...As i reach home...i saw him still sleeping,because i wan him to eat some medicine...
so i wake him up to eat,after eat den eat medicine...
den we watch our mv lo...But he really vy sick...When he touch me i could feel how Sick is he...
But Duno Why..The way he touch me last night...Warm,and...so sweet
he hug me and touch my face...Hurm....I love my dear XD...SWEET SWEET***
Time is Almost 10...he said that he wan to go home...of coz i said can ( But wif little dunwan )
act i worry that either can he drive safely to home....so...i requested he overnight at here..
But he said he gt something to do tmr morning...so wat can i do...just let him go home luu**
Dear i Hope u Recover Soon Ya....Dun make me worry =)
I love You~~

The One That I Really Cared And Love The Most

Sweet Heart,Im here to Wish u Find a Suitable Job For Urself
Dear No work jor DUN BECOME FAT FAT OH
Hehes....Loves U Always....

The Pic Of My Loves

**He look Cute While Holding The DOG**

**have a sweet sweet kiss from my sweet heart**

~Sweet Morning~

Yea...Its A very Sweet Morning for me today,Because as i Open my eyes...He are sleeping beside me....I love u my dear**
Yesterday we have a bit argue...because he said he wan to go and drink wif his fren again..
GOSH...i think is natural for me if dunwan my bf to go so often....
And he just went to drink last few days...But when i said NO to him,he seems to be unhappy,even he din said so...but i can c from his face...
After i thinks deeply den i tell myself that i have to gv some freedom to him,den i let him to go...
i just dunwan u to be unhappy,since u always unhappy bcoz of ur job...perhaps i shud gv u some freedom to let u go out play wif fren =) *I wish u Happy* But of coz nt that often....
As he reach there he send me a msg saying he already reach...wat i reply is...
Deardear,dun be unhappy lar..bla bla....good night luu.....den i fall as sleep....
suddenly phone rang...when i look at the time...it's already 2+,and he called me ask either am i sleeping...i said yes...first i tot he just wan to call me and said he reach home safely...=)
But he ask that if he could come over to overnight...OF COZ I SAID YES!!!
and then he reach...he hug me tight...YEA***I LOVE U SWEET HEART!!!
But im wondering why ll he come that late?bcoz usually he ll come overnight only on fri,sat & sun..or mayb,he dun wan me mad on him because he went to drink wif his fren,But he was telling me that he came because he was missing me,**SWEET** hahaha~~~
on the normal days if i din request but even i did he ll gv me many reason...but even he said dunwan i wont be mad on him since i can c him everyday =)....
Act i hope to tell u that i wont reli mad on u if u go drink wif fren,all i want is u promised me tat u wont go fool around wif the gurl...And im happy that u'll come to me when u finish ur drink wif fren...at least....u let me know that u're thinking of me....*Thats enuff*
I LOVES YOU LEE ENG CHUAN!!!!!!!

Hurm...Again im here to update my blog...
But there's nth special that i wan to talk about...
Becoz i was there wif my dear...the kind of love....
Yes we did....But yet....i Duno how long it'll last for...
Hope it could last FOREVER!!!
I knew that nowdays he is quite unhappy becoz of his job...
i hope i wont a be burden to him,and i hope he'll find a job that really suitable for him soon...
Since this job was really not that good...
And we were went to PD on last sat wif his fren...just awhile...
And we walk around the beach...just 2 of us...SWEET...
i were thinking....If i could hold ur hand till both of us getting old...
that ll be damn romantic....yes it ll..!!
He were saying that he wan to go PD on this sat again...
Wif all his fren...And me....
Act i was reli the lucky 1...He was reli a very good bf for me...
and i reli very very appreciate and cherish wat he did for me...
whenever he wan to go wif his fren...he ll bring me along if he can....
this reli quite seldom a man can do it....
And he ll come over to fetch me everyday even he are exhausted
That day his fren were saying...Im there too....
If he's going to fetch his gf everyday...He wont do so...
And my Dear just kept silent...and his fren cont...
If i need to fetch my gf everyday den i ll think a solution...
gv her a car..BLA BLA.....den my dear said...
i cant do this den i hv to fetch her everyday lo...
Perhaps sometimes i might have to let u loose abit...
I LOVE YOU my sweet heart....
when i were POSTING this...suddenly my dear gave me a morning call...
hehes...but he dunno that i had written everything bout us in here...
I dunwan u to know either....=)